The project is over. Johnny and I fly home (that is, to Florida) tomorrow to be reunited with Julie, Georgia and Rosie who returned from Panama a few weeks ago.
What did I get out of this six-month residency here? I could say that it expanded my understanding of the world, opened my eyes to another culture and made me more appreciative and tolerant of others. That sounds nice, but I don’t know if it is true. It might be, but it sounds like poppycock.
I think it is far more likely that my children received such benefits. I hope that they learned enough language and also learned not to fear the world, so that they leave Panama with a broader education and are better equipped for life on Earth. Again, I really don’t know.
What I do know is that we visited many beautiful and interesting places, made new friends and crafted for a short time a fascinating and comfortable new life in a strange place. We were happy, built a new social network and had adventures as a family. That is certain.
Here’s what else I know, speaking now only for myself. There are three very practical benefits I have gleaned from this six-month project:
I can speak Spanish. My Spanish is still not great. My progress has been less than what I had hoped, due to the fact that I did not achieve true immersion here. But I speak Spanish every day and there are no longer any situations I cannot handle in this language. This is a measurable improvement in my capabilities and comes with the satisfaction of achieving, more or less, a life-long goal.
I am healthier. I ate better here and I exercised every weekday, something I had never done before. In fact, I had never worked out in a gym before Jan. 6, 2013, the day after I arrived here. I feel better all day long. Taking up exercise doesn’t require moving to Central America, but making a big change in my lifestyle like this was possible due to the changed mindset that came from purposely disordering my life.
I am free. This was true already, but this project reminded me of this fact. Moving to Panama shattered my routines and provided me the space to choose new ones. Many of our friends and family tried to discourage us from making the leap, citing the risks and the listing for us the deficiencies of a place they had never been. It made us nervous about leaving our comfortable patterns of life. Sometimes it feels that we are bound by such things, when really everything we ever do is by choice.
As a result, I feel more confident in making other big changes in my life should I choose, subject only to those constraints that I consciously accept, namely the desires and interests of my wife and children. They are free too. I hope that they know it.
Will we return to Panama? Yes. We don’t know when or why, but only that we will. After all, for 175 days, Panama was home.
(Photos from Phil’s iPhone)

















































































































